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martytx07 36, Male, Texas, USA - 53 entries

Jul 2007
2:55 PM CST

Alright, wow, haven't written in FOREVER! I don't know why I do that. I really should try to write at least every week but huh, it takes too long, especially with my ass talking, and talking. Anyways, umm, well I did get my tooth extracted at the dentist. Since I have like no insurance or anything the total was $170 It was crazy. I borrowed money from my sister and I put basically my whole first check to pay that back. Anyways, yeah, that's over with and I'm happy I got it done because there's no pain. The whole thing wasn't that bad anyways but the continous bleeding sucked. He also perscribed me some vicatin but I really didn't need it. I took it one night because I was afraid that when I fell asleep that the pain would come but I ended up getting on the computer because after taking the pill the lightheadness that I had felt all day seemed to get better and yeah. Ok, umm, enough about the tooh. Umm, I really don't like my job. It's like..I don't know. I really don't like it. I wanna have like a desk job working on a computer or something, lol. I know, I'm somewhat lazy but hey, what can I say, what gay man wants to freaking work doing stalking??? Ok, umm, anyways, oh, American Idol is having auditons in Dallas and I so want to go! I can't sing, period but I still wanna go audition, just to do it. I think it would be fun. I would love to see the judges! Give Paula a hug even if she's a little tipsy all the time. Umm, the place where they're having the auditons is only like 20 minutes away from the house so I'm totally cool with that. It would be great to see all the talent that's gonna be there too :D Umm, ok, well I guess that's all I have to really say about that for right now. Oh, and I want my step- cousin to come and audition. She said she would so I'm like yay. I'm gonna give my sister gas money to go pick her up. Oh, and speaking of my step-cousins. Ok, well let me start the story first. Ok, when I was in between the ages of 12-14 me and my step cousin (guy) use to fool around. I know, I was WAY TOO YOUNG to be doing stuff but anyways. There's no blood connection whatsoever, my aunt married his father so that became her step-son. Ok, so anyways, he was around the same age as me. His b-day is in January and mines is in June, I'm 19 and he's 18 now. Ok, so anyways, I haven't seen him in like 4 years because I moved away. We were and probably still are the complete opposites. He's like gansta like while I'm like square. When he was 14 he got a tatoo on his back that said his last name. I mean, he's like all out there you know? A hispanic thug! So anyways, during the time that I didn't see him he was locked up like twice. The second time he was locked up they locked him up for 2 year and a half. How freaking crazy is that??? While I'm still in high school, he's getting locked up. I knew he was headed down that path for a long time. Like he would argue with my aunt all the time and like, I don't know, he just had some angerment issues. Ok, so anyways, finally, after like 3 years of ever talking to him I talked to him on Saturday. It was like crazy to talk to him because he sounded so different from when I last heard him but his laugh was the same, lol. He was just like, "Hey Matin (in Spanish), I wanna see you my nigga" See, he's like thugish. And well anyways, I was playfully told him that I dropped that Mexican name a long time ago, and he just laughed and was like, what do you want me call you, Martin (English) I was like, haha, no. My name is MARTY! Haha, but yeah, that's what everyone calls me now and hearing Martin (Spanish) is just weird. So anyways, I just talked to him about what he's been doing and stuff and he said he got his GED while in jail, I laughed about it but I am really proud of him. I knew school wasn't gonna be his forte at all because by middle school he was really stuggleing. Ok, so yeah, he was like he was gonna go to a community college down there and was like, "Come down here Martin and go to college with me" He lives in Waco by the way and I was like,"Shit, I moved out of the ghetto a long time ago, I'm in Dallas now, why would I go back?" And he was just like, man, I'm trying to get out of the ghetto, yada yada. But anyways, I would like to see him again just to see how he has changed but I don't know if I would want to do anything sexual with him anymore. I don't know...maybe if it went down to it I might give in because don't get me wrong, but when we were younger, I thought he was HOT! I doubt he wants it anyways but I guess I'll never know 100% until the time comes where we can have time alone again. I mean...I don't know. I don't think I could ever have a realtionship with him and I really don't want sex to be like it use to...meaningless.

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